I have always been fascinated with words. Hard to imagine of a writer, I’m sure. In high school my friend and I would have Extensive Vocabulary Competitions which basically consisted of using words of notable grandiosity enough to rendering the other impressed. The person who spoke the word received a point.
I like to think I won, but memory always serves oneself best.
In the last decade or so I’ve been obsessed with a new concept of linguistics and have found myself to be an even more diligent studier of words.
It all started when I wanted to express to my friend how important she was to me and found that the English language didn’t have a word for it. I was trying to find one word to define the feeling of two women who are so in tune with each other that it feels as though they must have known each other from one or more past lives. It’s a non-romantic love deep and sincere and knowing.
We finally just settled on soul-mate, because that is probably the closest word to describe it.
But it still doesn’t explain it.
Since then I have found a curiosity to describe other things that english doesn’t have words for. For example…
Iktsuarpok (Inuit)- That feeling of anticipation when you’re waiting for someone to show up at your house so you keep going outside to check for them.
Or I really liked this one…
Gigil (Filipino)- The urge to pinch or squeeze something that is irresistibly cute.
Over the past week I have been doing a Facebook series of post full of these words I have found captivating. Including things such as this marvel that I have spoken about often but never had a name for.
I’ve spoken about Cherophobia to auditoriums full of teenagers as we discussed how to overcome it and why something so silly holds us back. Finding this word has been one of the highlights of my years-long quest to define everything.
But now I think it’s time to take it a step further. I think it’s time to make my own word!
I often have this feeling–in fact, I feel it so fiercely that it was suggested to me that I give it a name to identify it when it’s happening–so it’s time to give it a name. It’s a feeling of heightened anxiety and stress combined with joy and excitement about the same event.
I’ve been feeling it a lot especially while launching my first book. My book is something I’ve been working towards for so long and am thrilled to finally be doing it, yet at the same time I’ve never done it before and it’s rather terrifying. I feel the two conflicting emotions so hard at the same time that it actually gives me a stomach ache.
Kind of silly.
I think giving it a name will help me to deal with this euphoric anxiety so that it doesn’t get the best of me. I can say, oh, I’m just feeling such-and-such and then move on. As it is now, I’m left feeling out of sorts and panicky.
So let’s do it! Wont you help me? Comment with your ideas. It doesn’t have to make sense, it’s a new word after all, I just request that it be pronounceable.
My top runners so far are:
Can you think of something better??? (Most likely you can!)